Sunday, May 15, 2011
Missing u right now...
It's been a week since u last hug mi to slp le..
M missing u..
Missing not onli u n oso Daphne..
Hubby & Daphne is my life.. Of coz including Delroy.
Delroy ar delroy... When r u coming out to see ur family??
Daphne tok to u just now.. can u reali hear her?
I think u can.. Coz aft hearing her voice u have been veri active until now oh...
I bet u oso cant wait to come out see ur family right.. Especially u got such a good sister..
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U noe, u remind mi of Dylan..
A regret deep in my heart.
Who says i dun miss him? Who says i dun feel e pain..
All these i had to keep it all deep inside mi.
Once, mine... But no longer mine..
How can anyone understand this kinda feeling tat i am going thru?
I hide it deep deep in mi...
Never wanted anyone to noe..
Not even Vincent will noe how i feel..
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Wat past is past, i dun reali wanna tok abt it..
I m happy with wat i have now.
Wat lies ahead of mi i dunno & dun wanna go n predict.
All i noe is i have to cherish wat i have now...
Life's short & i will never noe when is this life of mine gonna end..
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I wanted to give my children a good life... A life tat i had nv had before..
A life which is GOOD..
No more walking my old foot steps..
Especially Daphne..
She comes from a broken Family, but right now she has a completed family. With a Mummy, Daddy & brother.
I dunno if i would wan Vincent to visit her anot..
Still a long way to go... But i reali dun wanna Daphne's life to be disrupted.
Wat if Vincent wans her back?
But i hope he would not. He could not give Daphne happiness...
At least tat is wat i think.
She is happy. For now..
I dun wan Vincent to step into her life again..
Maybe once or twice, seeing her will be enough.
After all, he is still her natural dad.
But tat will be aft he give Daphne some money...
This world is Realistic.
Talk abt Money. No Money No Talk.
Tat's how life is...
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It's late already.. But i still can't slp...
Thinking abt alot of things tat had happened to mi for the past 25 years..
Wat have i been doing? Wat have i achieved?
Nothing... Nothing at all..
All i had is Daphne... & Delroy(soon)..
Wat else?
Certificate? No...
Work?? No....
Nothing at all...
Im not being EMO..
But i really wanna achieve something all by myself..
At least something to my name...
A certificate or wat...
I swear, when my children grow up, i wanna go back study & get a certificate.
I believe i can do it.
!!!!
-Xiao^Ss-
♥♥WeLcOmE tO Xiao^S ♥♥xXiAo^Ss |iFe♥♥ Sunday, May 15, 2011
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