today morning went to SGH for my counselling n blood test... e video i watch wasn't tt gruesome but was enough to leave endless nightmare for mi...
Nobody wan things to turn out this way.. DESTINY lies in our hands. i believe in my decision n i will no regret wat i hv choose..
there is no way im gonna give my children lousy life.. Daphne is my fruit of labour.. i love her..
I think i'm getting depression soon le.... Hais...
Tomolo going for the counselling before operation.... Everyday im thinking...Thinking of Everything...
Been crying for the past few days coz of having nightmares....
But wat else can i do ?
Nothing liaos... Just to think n think n think only.....
Sad to say.... I reali hv got no more choices....
I m REALI reali SAD....
All i can say is SORRY....
♥♥WeLcOmE tO Xiao^S ♥♥xXiAo^Ss |iFe♥♥ Thursday, May 27, 2010
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Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Today is Jason Bday... After work went down to Shanghai Dolly.... Before tat Few of my colleagues had alr have quite a few drinks & some of them r alr high... One of them is my Dear!!! Zzzz... Quite angry at fers... But afterall is Jason bday so i dun mind....
Still thinking alot... Dunno y thoughts just came filling into my mind unknowingly...
i doesn't wanna think but i cant control my thinking.....
I hate all these thoughts.... Seriously....
Can all these thoughts just get outta my head for once ?
Just once for mi to have a night of peace...
Every night i'm just like CANT slp at all... Zzzz
Hais....
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Enough of all these Shits le,,,
i Wanna Go have a Good Rest.... Not wanting to care anymore at this moment@@!@@@@!!@@@$!#$#$#@!
♥♥WeLcOmE tO Xiao^S ♥♥xXiAo^Ss |iFe♥♥ Tuesday, May 25, 2010
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Sunday, May 23, 2010
Loves Working on Sunday... Working on Sunday=Taking Salary without Wrking hard... hahas... Life's easy for mi as a cashier... I must be e luckiest cashier in this industry... Reason being, i have a veri nice colleague in my bar... hee...
My dear oso veri nice... hahas... Wat i wan he will give it to mi... Good right? Lol... But most of e time he alwayas bully mi de... zzz Den in other ppl eyes it seems like im e one bullying him... Not fair right... No choice de... Hais....
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The day tat i fear is nearing... Part of mi reali dunno wan go.... But when reality Sunk in, i've got no choice but to give in to fate.... Sometimes many things r not up to us to decide... Life is tat unfair... U cannot have two good things at one time.... Being human cannot be Greedy.....
I am stressed but... i really dun have a choice... Or do i hv a choice???.
I wanna be stress-free lahs....
I noe u will be there for mi Dear.... But sometimes it's not being Selfish by not telling u wat im thinking... Sometimes i dunno how to tell u....
i'm sorry if i've made u stressed as well....
Dear... i appreciated e care & concern u gave mi... Really...
Love u...
MauckzZzz...
-Xiao_S-
♥♥WeLcOmE tO Xiao^S ♥♥xXiAo^Ss |iFe♥♥ Sunday, May 23, 2010
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Friday, May 21, 2010
I've been wondering... R Humans all like tat?? I noticed or rather to say i found out tat humans r Very Contradicting in thinking & talking... Wat they think & wat they tok is totally different.... Watever they Think now they do otherwise... Why is that so?? I dunno...
Human's Brain r veri Profound... Even a Psycologist will not totally understand wat human r thinking or Wat reali r in their heads....
To be frank, sometimes u might even be surprised how ur mind works... it's funny.... The things tat u r thinking and the way u wanted it to become & the real fact of hw u do it... It's Totally different.... Way different den wat u r thinking...
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All i noe is "Cherish ppl & things ard mi before they r gone...Before i Regret... I must Cherish & Treasure.."
If i love them, I'll tell them "I LOVE YOU"
If i miss them, i'll tell them "I MISS YOU"
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Never miss out the chance to let them now how u feel towards them coz u'll nv when will it be ur last moments or theirs......
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-Xiao_S-
♥♥WeLcOmE tO Xiao^S ♥♥xXiAo^Ss |iFe♥♥ Friday, May 21, 2010
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Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Sometimes i feel tt life is meaningless.. yet sometimes it seems so fun n exciting.. seriously everything in life is unpredictable... i have learnt to cherish ppl ard mi... i learnt to c things in many different prospects.. now im asking for peaceful n normal life... i lost alot in e past.. im gonna earn back wat i hv lost.. its going to b a fresh start for mi ...
I dunno y nowadays my emotion is very unstable... When i mean Very unstable, it is Very Very Unstable... I can be very very happy at this moment, another moment i can be veri veri emo... ZZZZZZ ARghs!!!!!!
i seriously need some help here!!!!
HaisSss....
I need advices but i dunno who to turn to....
All i faces now nobody reali understand.... No one reali noe how i feel.... Sometimes even i dun understand myself...
Wat can i do now??
Nothing... But to Think, think & think......
EmO......
♥♥WeLcOmE tO Xiao^S ♥♥xXiAo^Ss |iFe♥♥ Wednesday, May 19, 2010
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Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Had been thinking alot lately... Dunno y, but will always emo at a point of time... i noe tat many things happened for a reason... but i dun understand y cant life be normal for mi? im not asking much... just a normal life....
Thank God for giving mi a wonderful daughter... Though she at times give mi headache... but seeing her growing up is a comfort to mi....
Days r nearing.... I'm afraid... afraid of KARMA... Hais.... But.... Wat to do... Some things r just FATED... Cant believe im going thru all these all over again....
Hais....
All i hope now is EVERYTHING will be over soon....
Life will be better for mi....
I believe......
♥♥WeLcOmE tO Xiao^S ♥♥xXiAo^Ss |iFe♥♥ Tuesday, May 18, 2010
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hello... back to blog le... been a happy little woman these past one mth... met someone who reali dotes on mi though sometimes make me angry.. but at all times, he is e one giving in to me.. despite my temper n my unreasonableness.. he still gives in n entertain me.. sometimes he may b a little gong towards my feelings but he's trying hard.. thanks for everything..
♥♥WeLcOmE tO Xiao^S ♥♥xXiAo^Ss |iFe♥♥ Tuesday, May 18, 2010
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Thursday, May 6, 2010
I am SERIOUSLY STRESSED!!!!... i dunno why m i feeling stress... Is it coz of my court date? or TOMOLO... i reali dunno....
All i noe is i'm reali in a lost now... Wanna Find some peace in me but i can onli BLANK OUT... Thinking nothing at all.. my brain is totally EMPTY!!!
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I should be happy... i have a nice BF.. Nice colleagues, Fantastic family... wat more should i asked for ???
M i asking/ expecting too much in life alr?
I hope i'm not... i'm contented with my life right now ...
But such happiness does not last...
However i'll learn to treasure these wonderful moments....
Thanks for everything...
Everything happens for a reason...
That's wat i Strongly believed....
-Xiao_S-
♥♥WeLcOmE tO Xiao^S ♥♥xXiAo^Ss |iFe♥♥ Thursday, May 06, 2010
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